What Being Happy Feels Like


Friday, April 29, 2016

Dear Diary,

Does everyone really know what being happy feels like?

I was wondering that today because I am really happy. So happy! I tell you, when God answers a prayer, that is like that most happy feeling ever!! And I just wish that every single person one day feels what I felt today!

That feeling of knowing for yourself that there is really a God out there that is listening to you every moment of the day. A God that loves you and takes time to listen to every single thing that is troubling you!

So yeah, I have come to the conclusion that what happy feels like is when you have God as your best friend! 🙂

“Prayer is the opening of the heart to God as to a friend.” E.G.W.


Como Niños


Martes, Abril 26, 2016

Querido Diario,

Por fin pude subir el video a YouTube. Por fin! Jaja. Lo que paso fue que ayer se fue la luz (electricidad). Estaba a punto de subir el video, y después—la pantalla de la computadora se puso negra. Y dije, “Nooo!” Pero bueno, la luz se fue como a eso de las 5 P.M, y regreso como a medianoche. Para ese entonces yo ya estaba dormida, y solo me desperté porque la lámpara que esta encima o sobre de mi cama se prendió. La verdad me asusto. Estaba yo como, “Ijole, donde estoy!?” Jajaja!

Pero miren, aquí esta el video para que lo vean! 🙂


Pues si, así que cenamos una cena muy romántica con velas. Jejeje. Y la verdad, pues nos divertimos mucho. Mi hermanita mas chica, Daisy, andaba pero bien emocionada. Y aun cuando hizo la oración antes de cenar dijo esto, “Y gracias Jesus porque se fue la luz!”

Y saben que? Me quede pensando en lo que dijo mi hermana (no había internet, tenia todo el tiempo del mundo para pensar jaja!). Al mirar a mi hermana brincar toda contenta porque estaba emocionada porque íbamos a comer con la luz de las velas, y porque mi Papi estaba prendiendo una lámpara de queroseno, pues me contagio su felicidad. 🙂

Y de verdad, no toma mucho para hacer a un niño feliz. Nunca se han dado cuenta de eso?! Son felices con las cosas mas simples. Son confiados y cariñosos!

Porque no podemos ser mas como ellos? Ahora entiendo lo que Jesús quiso decir cuando dijo esto:

“De cierto os digo, que si no os volvéis y os hacéis como niños, no entraréis en el reino de los cielos.” Mateo 18:3  

Miren lo que dice este pasaje de uno de mis libros favoritos:

“La sencillez, el olvido de si mismo y el amor confiado del niñito son los atributos que el Cielo aprecia. Son las caracteristicas de la verdadera grandeza.” El Deseado de Todas las Gentes pagina 404. 

Yo quiero ser mas como los niños. Y tu?

Like a Child


Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Dear Diary,

Today I could finally upload my video to YouTube. Finally! LOL. What happened was that yesterday we had a power outage. I was about to upload the video, and then–black screen! I was like, “Noooo!” But yeah, the power was out at about 5:00 P.M, and came back on like at 12:30 A.M. So by that time I was already sleeping, and was only awakened because the lamp that is over my bed turned on on me. It scared me. I was like, “Geez, where am I?” haha!

There it is!

So yeah, yesterday we ate a very romantic dinner lighted by candles! hahaha! We really had fun though. My little sister, Daisy, was a happy mess, and when she said the prayer before eating, she was like, “And Jesus, thank you because the power went out!”

And you know what? I really thought long and hard about what my little sister said (I mean, I had all the time to think without any internet. Lol.) Watching my little sister jump around all happy at the thought of eating in the candlelight, and because my Dad was lighting a kerosene made me happy too! 🙂

It just does not take so much to make a child happy! Have you ever realized that?! They are happy with the simplest of things. They are so trusting and loving!

Why can’t we be more like them? Now I understand what Jesus meant when He said this:

“…Verily I say unto you, Except ye be converted, and become as little children, ye shall not enter into the kingdom of heaven.” Matthew 18:3

Look at this beautiful quote from one of my favorite books:

“The simplicity, the self-forgetfulness, and the confiding love of a little child are the attributes that Heaven values. These are the characteristics of real greatness.” The Desire of Ages page 437.1

I want to be more like a little child. How about you? 🙂

Heidi, be Patient…


Sunday, April 24, 2016

Dear Diary,

I have to say that I really like it when I am in situations that test my patience. Those situations show me just how much I can take without exploding. And yes, lately I have been in many similar situations, which makes me realize just how much more patient I need to be. If God is placing me in such situations, then that only means that I have failed to learn the lesson and need some constant reviewing.

Well, I’ll tell you what happened:

So as you  know, I film on Sunday’s for my channel. The major parts of the video I had filmed like a week earlier, but today I was to film the introduction and the conclusion. So I got ready to film. My sister and I set up the “set” lol, we only put up a curtain; I got rid of my daily messy bun, and put on a nice shirt. The camera was ready, and then…my Dad comes out his room and decides it is a grand time to make some banana bread.

And I was like, “Are you serious?”

I was to film in front of the dining table, and with my Dad doing his famous banana bread, well, that was not possible. So I let my Dad to his thing hoping he’d hurry up.


LOL! I think that people will now think I am an impatient looney. I hope they don’t think that. I believe that everyone is impatient at some point, the only difference is that I am choosing to let the world know so that they can learn from my experiences.

Anyways, the hours rolled by, and the bread was never near to be done. I paced the floor, wrote like 2 pages in my diary to kill the time, ate some peanuts, but nothing worked. I had to film like soon because later it would not happen, so I decided to film in my grandmother’s room.

To make a long story short, filming in the room was far better. I honestly think my patience paid off. I did not explode in any way, and when my Dad offered to let me film, I just told him to continue doing his bread with no rush. 🙂 Wendy and I had a blast filming! It was really fun and we had a great time.

And well, what am I trying to get across? It’s pretty simple. Patience is a great virtue. It is a virtue that will distinguish the true children of God, and therefore should be cultivated. Don’t be discouraged if you are so impatient that you are referred to as “the son/daughter of thunder”. Remember that with God’s help, you and I can change for the better!

“Here is the patience of the saints: here are they that keep the commandments of God, and the faith of Jesus.” Revelation 14:12

“And beside this, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue; and to virtue knowledge; And to knowledge temperance; and to temperance patience; and to patience godliness…” 2 Peter 1:5-6

Mother-Daughter Talk


Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Dear Diary,

I missed out on playing basketball with my two little sisters and my Daddy’os. *sigh* You want to know why I missed out? Well…I sorta took a prolonged nap of an hour and a half. Shhhh, don’t tell a soul. So yeah, I stayed because I had supper to cook, and I also had viola practice to get finished.

But it was nice to stay because my Mom stayed too, and we had a nice chat together. We had what many people call a mother-daughter talk. And yeah, I know that many girls are like scared to talk to their mothers, feel uncomfortable to talk to them about things, or about what they feel.

But that should not be. I know how girls feel, because I felt like that at some point in my life. I tried to fix my problems by myself, and shut myself from speaking to my Mom. And what happened was that I literally broke down emotionally  because I could not bear with everything anymore. But my Mom helped me so much! Words fail to me to describe how privileged I am to have a god-fearing mother whose advice and counsel has saved me from many a heart-ache. Of course, I do have to say that many times I have decided not to listen to her advice, and so yeah, that was pretty stupid of me. But I learned my lesson.

But the message that I want to get out to all the girls out there is this: your mother should be your best friend. Your mother knows you more than you even know yourself, and she knows what is best for you. Parents have that awesome ability to see ahead, and if you listen to them, you will be saved a lots of future heart-ache.

I mean, right know you must think that you are super-woman or Miss know-it-all, but you are not. Later on, you will see that it was the other way around: your mother was the wise lady and you were miss-know-nothing.

I am sorry if I sound harsh, but it’s true. And I tell you this by experience.

Cherish you mother. Love her. Care for her. Make her life easier. Make her smile. 🙂

 A wise man will hear, and will increase learning; and a man of understanding shall attain unto wise counsels…The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction. My son, hear the instruction of thy father, and forsake not the law of thy mother: For they shall be an ornament of grace unto thy head, and chains about thy neck.” Proverbs 1:5,7-9

I ❤ you Mom!!

What Being Thankful Means to Me


Sunday, April 17, 2016

Dear Diary,

What I write today will be short. But I just want to say what a blessed day I had today. Thank you for this great blessing that you guys have given us. You know who you are, and you also know that we are very grateful, and words cannot express the deep gratitude that we feel.

I also want to say that the Lord has been so wonderful to me and to my family.

“Thank you Lord!”

*happy sigh* I could say that phrase a zillion times and not get tired! I understand this verse now:

“…and they rest not day and night, saying, Holy, holy, holy, Lord God Almighty, which was, and is, and is to come.” Revelation 4:8 

Lastly, I just want to say that Jesus is coming soon, and we need to use our talents to the utmost of our abilities. Time is short–very short. Let us spread the word with the gifts God has given us. And don’t tell me that you have no gifts, because you do. I am sure of it. 🙂 Use them; don’t bury them. Don’t make that mistake. Please don’t. I tell you from experience.

P.S. Guess what you guys?! I got my driver’s license yesterday!! Yaay! Thank God!

Driving Test and my Trauma


Monday, April 11, 2016

Dear Diary,

*sigh* My driving story began long time ago. Back in the day when I was 17, my friends and my brother were all taking their written tests, and driving tests, and I was over here having different feelings. I was like well, all my friends are doing it so may be I should to, and well, no let’s wait, I don’t want to grow up so fast; take it easy people.

But then it happened. I saw an accident, and from that day on I was terrified of driving. That particular day, my family and I were eating our dinner when I heard the most horrific sound I had ever heard, and then the crash. We rushed outside, and the accident had taken place just like yards from our place! There were shards of glass everywhere, and I could see the man’s bleeding face and I believe he was unconscious. I did not dare go nearer because my legs were literally trembling. My brother was the one who was helping the man, along with another neighbor who was trying to pry open the smashed side door of the car. I saw the firefighters cutting the door out so the man could be put on the stretcher. I saw everything. The man who did not move, and looked so still…

I was traumatized. I really was. And yes, I’m finally admitting to this…

And then my Dad began to tell me I had to drive, and I just kept putting it off. At the beginning I was so scared to drive. My legs would tremble, and so would my hands. My mind would go like blank sometimes. For example, if I was going to change to the right lane, I would check my left mirror. How stupid is that? And my Dad would be like, “What did you just do???” And I would just laugh it off. I got good at that, I would laugh it away or just remain dead silent.

But thanks to God, my fear gradually went away. I realized that driving was not like Weeee! Look at me, I just got my license! Do you want to see it? And oh my goodness, my picture came out so good! No, driving is a need, not a luxury or thing to show off. Many times, my Dad had to stop working to take us places we needed to go, only because I could not drive.

So I was determined to drive with God’s help. I took the written test and passed. But I allowed it to expire, and so I had to take it again. And today I had my behind the wheel test. I cannot tell you you how nervous I was! Terrified. But I had special people encouraging me and just praying for me. Before my test, my Mom prayed with me and that just like calmed me down a great deal.

I went inside, got in line and in minutes the instructor came out with me. She was actually really nice. But still I needed to feel at ease somehow, so I struck up a conversation as we walked over to the car. And it helped! 🙂

And well, as the test began I was just like praying in my head all the time. And then when it was over, she was like, “Congratulations, you passed!”

I was like, “Can you repeat that please? Did you just say I passed? As in I get to have a license??”

I was so happy! I could jump and scream in joy. hahaha A friend of mine was like, “You should have screamed.” But no, security would probably haul me out or something, so I waited till I was alone in the bathroom. Lol!

But I am soooooooo thankful!

Thank You Lord!!! ❤

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!”